Direktlänk till inlägg 9 december 2012
The days for me seems so long, and still i dont get anything done at home.
I basicly just sit and do nothing..
And i really need to do some laundry and cleaning..
But i just sit and listening to music, thinking and thinking..
And blaming myself, wich i guess dont help...
And so wish for that all this was just a bad bad bad dream!!
Anyway Jon did send me a text earlier wich said "Move on hun"...
And i did reply that it isnt that easy and if it was that easy i would have already.
I mean i cant say that i enjoy feeling shit and low for 6 months just cause its fun!
And if hes 100% sure thats what he wants, he can come here and say it to my face.
Not to much to ask i think.. But he only aswered "Hmm!" to that..
Just talked to my mum on skype, and she so wished she could do something to help..
And feels abit sad for me...
But i put myself in this situation and i have given the "power" to Jon..
So its all up to him now, i can only sit here and wait.
Wich is really hard, since we have talked tons everyday and now his all quite..
I wanna write something like all the time to him, but affraid that will push him away..
So im doing my best not to..
Hugs And Kisses
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