Idag fick jag ett paket i postlådan och det innehöll detta underbart vackra halsband.

Texten som står är skriven i boxen man förvarar halsbadet i..

Det är från våra underbara vänner Line och Per i Norge..

Underbara människor som man inget annat än älska kan..

Tack så mycket igen, jag är super glad.

Hugs And Kisses

I can´t expect to have a answer in 2 seconds or like in a few days..

But  can´t blame me for hoping?!

Hope is the last thing  person will loose so..

And after all i know our connection is a rare thing and that we have something special.

All i wish for at this point is that he would just say "ok Jen, i still have the same feelings as before. And that he´s willing to give it another try".  I mean i would never do the same misstake a 3rd time, thats for sure..

This is like all that takes up my mind right now, and that my doggy soon will be here.

And i mean this time im totally open with it all, and don´t really care if someone thinks im stupid or whatever.

Or if they think what im doing isnt right etc..

This is my life, its time i take charge over it, and dont let crazy thoughts take over.

They say its better late then never, lets just prey i´m ot to late   .

Hugs And Kisses

Ikväll så fick jag något som muntra upp mig lite från "low" mode..
Fick ett mms som självklart innehöll lille Bailey, åh blir så glad när jag får de.

Vill ha hem honom NU!!!
Det skulle ju absolut göra att man inte satt och tänkte så mycket.
Hmm måste komma på en bra dag som jag/vi kan åka ner och hämta hem honom.

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This starts to be normal for me now, can't sleep. Im so tired, but have to much thoughts running arround in my head that i just can't relax and fall asleep. And my eyes hurt after all the tears and then that i don't sleep so much.

Its annoying, hope it all just ends as i hope and then i can be more comfy again.

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The days for me seems so long, and still i dont get anything done at home.

I basicly just sit and do nothing..

And i really need to do some laundry and cleaning..

But i just sit and listening to music, thinking and thinking..

And blaming myself, wich i guess dont help...

And so wish for that all this was just a bad bad bad dream!!

Anyway Jon did send me a text earlier wich said "Move on hun"...

And i did reply that it isnt that easy and if it was that easy i would have already.

I mean i cant say that i enjoy feeling shit and low for 6 months just cause its fun!

And if hes 100% sure thats what he wants, he can come here and say it to my face.

Not to much to ask i think.. But he only aswered "Hmm!" to that..

Just talked to my mum on skype, and she so wished she could do something to help..

And feels abit sad for me...

But i put myself in this situation and i have given the "power" to Jon..

So its all up to him now, i can only sit here and wait.

Wich is really hard, since we have talked tons everyday and now his all quite..

I wanna write something like all the time to him, but affraid that will push him away..

So im doing my best not to..

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And that is how i feel about this...

Hugs And Kisses

This song means so much to me, and everytime i hear it i start to smile and feel so good..

Its the first song Jon recorded on his phone and sended to me, but he was the one singing ofc.

Such a unique thing to do, lets hope that connection and feelings still means much..

Hugs And Kisses

Hugs And Kisses